| | Friday, April 1, 2005
Dating and cuddling
Well, before I begin, let me just say, it is so good to blog again!
LOL. I mean, I've really been wanting to write for the past three weeks
and I've even been keeping a list of topics to write about. Honestly,
school has just been so absolutely crazy. I've been averaging about
five hours of sleep most nights, mostly cause I'm so wound up, not
because I'm working til 4am every night. Things are starting to wind
down now though, finally. I mean, I did spend eight solid hours writing
a paper today... and this has been a light day! 
But really, other than this individual paper and my group paper which
are both nearing completion, I only have a test; and all of this school
work wraps up on Tuesday! So that's right, no exams... just wholesome
John time coming free. I feel like I've really neglected friendships
lately, understandably of course, but darnit, I really miss all my
friends.
So now that I've excused my semi-absence for the past month, I think I will move on to a few more interesting topics.
Well, just when I was starting to consider myself an expert on dating,
I was challenged by a few new situations. Hehehe. I thought that I had
it all figured out. I thought, I know what I want, I want to get to
know people. It turns out that is much more easily said than done. I
guess that I must bashfully admit, I do enjoy dating... I mean, why
not?! It's fun getting to know someone and flirting without it being
awkward. I guess many people don't share this opinion though.
Here's my definition of dating: Two people going on two or more dates
with the purpose of getting to know each other better as one of a
series of steps towards a relationship.
The dictionary doesn't actually define "dating." It does define a
"date" though as: An engagement to go out socially with another person,
often out of romantic interest.
So the dictionary definition does not specify a time period... and
since we measure our lives by what dictionaries say I guess that's why
there's a discrepancy in peoples' beliefs about dating. 
But seriously, I thought I was dating two guys, at the same time  ,
with the purpose of getting to know them better. It turns out that one
had no idea that he and I were dating, and I think the other fella
thought he and I were starting to date... after our three dates. When
they both found out that I was dating someone else they both decided
not to see me anymore.
Well, I find the whole situation rather ironic. I mean, I did get a
taste of my own medicine and ended up with nothing... but if one of
those boys didn't consider us dating then was I ever really dating
around? LOL.
So here's the take-away message. No one knows what dating is...
everyone has his/her own idea. I learned that I'm just going to have to
be more upfront and tell guys on the first day that I meet them that
I'm dating around. *Sarcasm* Obviously this won't work cause then I'll
just scare boys away.
Ugh! Once again John is frustrated with dating. So what do I want to do
with my singlehood now that I have just about finished school and am
becoming relationship-minded again? I just want to keep meeting people
and hope that those who do connect with me will want something too. 
Now, the whole cuddling topic.
I realized today how much I enjoy cuddling. Hehe. No no, unfortunately
I don't have a juicy story to share about some visitor to my house
while studying [although my mother insists that someone was lying on
one of the beds in the house today!] But yeah, I've always known that
I'm an affectionate person... maybe to a fault. Whether it's my friends
or some special guy, I really enjoy physical contact, and no, it
doesn't have to be sexual.
I'm not comfortable cuddling with everyone, but there are certain
people with whom I become completely unrestrained, and hence my
comment, "to a fault." The trouble with cuddling with people who aren't
friends is that it becomes misinterpreted so easily, maybe rightly so.
So if anyone is up for a cuddle without misinterpreation then let me know. 
I should be posting again next week! I hope that everyone is well and ready to party now that April has arrived.
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